A little forced sex

Fantasy is fantasy, but some stuff still pushes my squick buttons, especially violent rape.  I don't want to be attacked by a psychopath in a dark alley.  Nor am I any good at playing the psychopath.

But change the scenario slightly and I'm on board.  The change is subtle but makes all the difference: I don't mind (this is still fantasy/SL we're talking about) rape as an accepted consequence for failure.   I used to go to a combat RP sim where the winners could fuck the losers; that was hot, not least because you couldn't predict if you'd be top or bottom. 

Same diner, different girl

A slight variation is a common one at the Hard Alley Reform School.  For instance, the other night I was out with a fellow student, Kay. I took her to a diner and started to seduce her.  As I've mentioned, the narrative of seduction fascinates me.... sometimes you get lucky, sometimes things just peter out.  While engaged in this, some dude showed up at the diner, said he was a truant officer, and demanded our names.

I was annoyed at first; I don't usually like intrusions in ongoing RP.  But Kay didn't mind, so I played along.  Well, what do you know, we were in trouble for missing classes, but Mr. Officer was willing to be reasonable.  Being reasonable started with telling us to take off our clothes, right there in the diner.

Now, I play a tough girl in Hard Alley, and don't just roll over for bad guys.  I considered running-- the guy couldn't pursue us both!  But I wasn't going to leave Kay at his mercy.  (It turned out Kay was thinking the same about me!)  Or maybe I should offer myself in her place?  Well, a reform school girl knows when to fight and when to strip, and this was the latter case.

I was naked first, so I offered to help slowpoke Kay.  The guy liked this idea, so I helped remove the rest of her clothes.  Then he invited me to take her to a table and eat her out.  This was a very easy order to follow.

Many guys like lesbians-- so long as they can jump in themselves at any time.  As a bi-dyke I want to point out that girls can satisfy each other entirely on their own; we don't need a guy.  But in this case, I had to admit, the intrusion had led to quickly getting Kay naked and my mouth on her pussy.  True, the guy's cock was soon in mine, but the whole situation was very hot and I wasn't complaining.

He left after trying out both of us... I hadn't come, so Kay very nicely helped me out, right on the floor of the diner. 

I've also been trying out a superheroine sim, Hayao.  They seem to take their RP seriously there... though the basic idea is something out of bad fanfic: superheroines take on some villain, get defeated, and then raped by the villain.  I play a criminal... I figure bad girls have more and more varied opportunities.

Last night I played out this basic scenario with a couple friends, with an odd twist: Kata, the superheroine, had the fight with the evil guardian, and I got raped.  How did this happen?

Kata and I are on opposite sides of the law, but we're friends in Hayao (we are both new in town and haven't had opportunity to engage professionally, so to speak).  We were quietly having a drink in a bar when a Guardian, Troy, one of the local evil cops, came by and demanded to see our papers. 

Ironically, I had them but Kata didn't.  I generally follow the logic of RP wherever it goes; my character is a hacker, and I figured I'd be an expert at setting up legit covers.  It'd be foolish incompetence for me, as a criminal, to sneak into town without proper papers... of course I'd have them.

Kata, however, didn't, and instead royally defied the Guardian.  Both have superpowers... Troy has a resident fire demon with formidable control over fire, and Kata is near-invulnerable.  There was a jolly fight-- which I stayed out of-- and Kata ended up with her clothes and hair burned off, but otherwise healthy.  The last blast of fire had burned a hole in the wall, and she simply decamped.

That left Troy with no one to take back to HQ, so he seized on me.  I protested, but Hayao is some kind of tinpot dictatorship and what can you do with these local corrupt cops?  

Hayao cop enjoying his work

I have powers too, but they're mostly defensive, and limited.  Basically I can create a big electric shock-- but usually just one, so the timing has to be just right, and there wasn't much opportunity against Troy.

So, basically, he took me back to HQ bound, stripped me, and fucked me.  My character is partially cybernetic, and an unintended consequence of the wiring is an enhancement of sexual pleasure... it's like having an internal vibrator.  So, wouldn't you know it, I couldn't help ending up coming. 

(I know, cheesy, but not quite as much as the superheroine who turns out to really like being bound and forced.  And I can vary it by circumstances... I was assaulted in Hayao a few days before and played it more realistically, crying and by no means getting excited.  And then turned the tables on the attacker.)

So, er, my point, if I had one, is that abuse of authority is a sufficient plot too.  And if you do abuse your authority, well, abuse it... it's not a date, you don't have to be gentle in your movements and hunt down my clit.  Humiliation can be hot. 

(Is that a little weird?  Mmmmaybe.  It feels weird to me sometimes.  But hot is hot, and I'm not going to apologize for what fantasies I like.)

The moment she will

There's a moment that fascinates me... most of all when it happens to me, but also when it happens to someone else.  It's the moment between not knowing if she will or not, and knowing she will.

Even in SL it's rare.  Usually it's safer to play with someone you know.  With SL boys it's usually not hard... um, that came out wrong.  It's not difficult with boys.  It's more magical with girls.

I met this girl about a week ago; she was a dancer.  We talked awhile and she went to bed... she contacted me tonight and I took her to the Duchess to dance and talk some more.  She was incredibly gorgeous, with a sweet face and long hair and a body she was showing off in very little clothing. 

After awhile I said that if we'd danced like that in a real bar I'd be hot and need a drink.  She said she was hot too.  I took her outside to a quiet spot and kissed her, still half expecting her to startle.  I can be dim sometimes... well, I had got the impression she couldn't stay up late.  She returned the kiss.

She suggested going "someplace else"... well, now I knew. :)

It was all the nicer because it's been a shitty week.  Many bad things happening.  So it felt all the nicer that someone wanted to make love to me.

Cuffs and Australians

Another early journal entry... actually only part of one; I was a busy little elf back then.  This one is notable for being the first appearance of Mado.  Susan was introduced here.

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At Susan's house.  Jac, me, Susan, Mado


Later on, I was at the ranch, and gravitated toward Susan, who I’d gotten to know rather intimately in the cageball.  There was a new girl there, Elizabeth, two hours old in 2L... she certainly wasted no time in finding the ranch!  Someone had given her a nice skin, but her clothes were pretty minimal.  Sophia decided to take her in hand; first she gave her some free items, and then proposed to take her shopping and buy her a proper collar.  She invited me along for this too!

So we went to a mall— a bondage mall— and Sophia selected an Amethyst Collar, in purple, for both of us... and then, why not, for a boy named Viktor who happened to be there.  She demonstrated for us, using her own collar and ours.  There are a few dozen animations on it, allowing all sorts of submissive positions, standing, sitting, kneeling, lying down; it even has several walks built in.  You can have a primary owner and several secondary ones; they can do more to you than you can to yourself.  Also, if an owner sets an animation, the sub can’t stop it.  (Of course, you can always take off the collar!)  The collar has an attached leash, which can be set with a max distance, so you can drag your slaves behind you.

More people showed up— a girl named Bambi; another girl named Mado who is a friend of Susan's.  Elizabeth was getting rather hot— she kept touching her clit— and soon after disappeared, very probably with Bambi.

Well, she missed getting cuffs.  They have their own set of animations too, though they don’t have owners.   Susan demonstrated that you could buy posts for your ceiling and hang a sub from them; she demonstrated on Mado, who was left to hang for a few minutes while Susan bought me my cuffs.

Finally Susan took me and Mado back to her house.  While Susan grabbed a quick bite in real life, Mado and I played upstairs with cageballs for awhile— these work especially well with the leashes, as you can run around the room, dragging your sub behind you.  Mado said that Susan once took her shopping that way. 

We were beginning to get frisky; I stripped down to my underwear, and even Susan had stripped down.   (Mado wasn’t wearing much to begin with.)  Then a friend of Susan’s came by, Jac (I think her name was), and everyone talked for awhile. 

Finally, someone suggested playing truth or dare... only it was already past five, and I just couldn’t stay up for more.  I kissed Susan, and (because of this or not) her Xcite clit responded... it was hard to leave, but I had to!

How not to do it, part 2

I have to get something off my chest, but first, to set the scene and conform to the spirit of the blog, here's what Kata and I were up to tonight.


Getting to know the older students

 I'm a student at the Hard Alley Reform School, you see.  Kata's been there before, in the form of a newly arrived near-innocent who needed to be properly introduced to the ways of the school.  But this time she was the veteran older student, who had to take the newer student (that would be me) in hand.  She is very good in either role.

As it happened, some chick came across us right at the end, and decided to play it aggressive... blocking the exit, trying to forbid me from getting dressed.  Normally it's a great thing to see someone at the school at all, but her approach pissed me off.  On a meta level: we were done with our scene and it's presumptuous to simply assume we both want another one.  And on the RP level, you shouldn't assume-- even in Hard Alley-- that anyone you meet wants to be topped, or can't fight back.  (There are ways to find out; reading profiles is a good start.)

I dressed, pulled a knife and told her if she got closer she'd get cut.  And she got closer.

And this, I'm afraid, is a pet peeve.

Now, in real life I'm hardly a bad girl... I just play one in Hard Alley.  But I want a modicum of realism in RP.  And for future reference if you RP with me: if a knife comes out, that's serious business.  You can run your mouth off if you like, but you respect that blade or you're an idiot.  The girl came close... I'm sorry, but what would happen in that situation is: she gets knifed in the gut.  That's not actually an interesting direction to go (she was a stranger who'd jumped into our scene), so I told her so (out of character) and left. 

There's several possibilities here:

• She was godmodding... that is, RPing in such a way that she does anything she wants, emotes that it worked, and ignores any danger.  Smart RPers avoid these people like the plague.  (She was talking about "covering my knife arm" as if I'd let her wander up in range of my weapon.  Uh uh, nope.)
• Her mind was in a video game; she was used to other characters doing what she said.  It doesn't always work when they are real people with particular desires and RL bedtimes.)
• She's watched too many stupid movies where someone is suicidally careless about a knife or a gun.  Maybe James Bond can try for a quick disarm, but you're not James Bond.
• She was just wasn't thinking through what it means when someone has a weapon on you.  There's a reason they say "No funny business."  It's because funny business might be an attack or an attempted disarm, and it forces the weapon user to attack.  (Or step back, if they can judge they can do so safely.)  You're asking to be hurt bad.  If you're banking on the other person losing their nerve... well, that's not a smart move when you have no idea what their skill level and personality are.

I was probably a little hot-headed myself, but as I say, it was presumptuous, and dumb RP.  She was a little thing, and inviting a confrontation with two tough-looking girls... why would that end well? 

How not to do it

I was looking over my SL journal, checking something I wanted to write about... oh my, there's so much there.  As Oscar Wilde said, it's good to keep a diary, so you have something sensational to read on the train.  But I don't have the patience to write anything long right now.  So I'll just record a bit of a sex scene I overheard early on...

Rudiwan: I try to kiss it.
Rudiwan slides into Fishpaw's throbbing pussy grinding against her
Rudiwan grins slding his hand across Fishpaw's trembling pussy
Rudiwan thrusts his fingers into Fishpaw's moist pussy
Fishpaw orgasms her cum flowing from her hot wet pussy
Rudiwan thrusts his fingers into Fishpaw's moist pussy
Fishpaw orgasms her cum flowing from her hot wet pussy
Rudiwan slaps Fishpaw's pussy
Fishpaw cums, her juices squirting from her pussy and down her legs
Rudiwan gently licks and nibbles Fishpaw's pussy
Rudiwan thrusts his fingers into Fishpaw's moist pussy
Fishpaw orgasms her cum flowing from her hot wet pussy

Yep, Fishpaw uses the same line three times.  Oh well, maybe she's channeling Gertrude Stein.

Shopping

I do at least one non-sex activity: shopping.  This is because you want to look your best and dress well in order to find people to have sex with.

I don't claim any special expertise, but if I'm after something I can patiently hunt it down for hours.  Or days.  These boots, for instance... it took forever to find them.

How to choose?  I got both!

I'm also very fond of my leather jacket.  I also finally found jeans that can be taken down in stages... a certain someone whose name is Kata likes to take pants down but not off, and now I can accommodate her.

In non-shopping news, my friend and old sub Mado turned up in SL tonight.  She should be turning up in the journal soon.  Hi Mado!

Gay/straight data from OKCupid

OKCupid occasionally posts blogs about the masses of data they've collected from their users, and it's always interesting.  Today they have a great post about gays/lesbians and straights.

Here's the bit I found the most interesting: responses from straight women on whether they've had sex with a woman:

Now, apply the obvious caveats here.  It's a dating site, probably not representative of the population at large-- though they do get all ages and people from all over North America.  But still, one quarter of the female respondents had a lesbian encounter and enjoyed it, and under half never have and think they never would.  Straight men are much less adventurous.  Come on, guys, loosen up... if we like it why wouldn't you?

There's also a neat map where gay-curious people are plotted by location.  It's highest in the west, in Canada, and in the Northeast, lowest in the Deep South.  Oregon is a hotspot; Mississipi is the biggest coldspot.

I wish a similar chart could be made for SL. :)  I'd expect an even larger red zone.  And if you're in the purple zone, look me up, I'll take care of you.

Put your earphones on for this

So, after wondering out loud how voice sex works in SL, my friend Ed showed me.  Um, no, not that way.  He invited me to a sim where a crowd of people was listening to a simulated sex act.

I said in that post that I couldn't imagine it, but I think if I'd tried harder I'd have got it.  Basically the guy was telling the girl to masturbate for him, and she was reacting.  He was acting as a top and I think she didn't know it... because just as she was about to come he told her to stop, and she reacted with confusion, even anger.  A bit later he was talking as if he was actually fucking her.

There was, in fact, heavy breathing and moaning... from her.  He was quite calm in the parts I heard (indeed, he had a nice soft, commanding voice). 

Ed seemed to like it, but I'm afraid it's not going to be my thing.  I'd feel far less safe... what if someone recognizes my voice?  I can act as I do on SL because I feel anonymous and safe. 

Also, I'm good with text.  I'd be terribly embarrassed to be masturbating into the mic (all the more so because I don't live alone).  And I like the slight disconnect between textual sex and whatever I'm doing, or not doing, in my own room.  I... er... well, I am often touching myself, but often an SL session is more like extended, very arousing foreplay.  And I touch type.  So, well, if I do come, it's in a long pause between sentences, not when I'm typing that I'm coming, OK?

Plus, listening to the girl's voice, something seemed off.  Either she had a bad mic that introduced distortion... or she was a boy with voice shifting software.  There's a warmth and naturalness to a real female voice that generally doesn't happen with voice shifting.

If it happens to be your thing, dear reader, that's lovely.  There's many things I enjoy that many people don't, and there's kinks that just don't do it for me.  Whatever gets you through the night, as a recent birthday boy said.

Blindfolded

Sometimes the secret to a memorable experience is to remove some input.  Something I've tried a few times now is a blindfold.  You need two toys for this:

• A blindfold HUD, which will actually cover the victim's screen except for chat.  For reasons that will become clear, they must close map and mini-map as well.
• An anonymoter... a toy I sell fof L$50 (mere pennies!), which removes identifying information from emotes.  After all, if you're blindfolded you can't tell who's touching you. 

Kimberley is in the middle

The results are something like this.

the voice sounds again "good... just concentrate"Kimberley nods, feeling her pulse picking up as she lays there blindly.

a soft touch goes over your cheek softly stroking then moving down over your arm "you can't feel around..."

the hand moves back over your arm onto your chest as you feel a warm breeze into your neck followed by a soft kiss,
Kimberley jumps involuntarily at the very first touch, laughing quietly at herself and biting her lip as she resist the urge to reach out.

you feel fingers brushing briefly along your arm

the hand reaches up over your cheekline softly moving through your hair moving it aside as you feel the kisses going up to your earlobe, your earlobe softly being kissed
Kimberley turns her head a bit to the side, to grant easier access to her neck and ear.

you then feel something hard on your earlobe, teeth scratching softly, nibbling onto it as the hand leaves your hair

fingers lightly touch your breast, touching and exploring before vanishing
Kimberley grasps lightly at the sheets of the bed to keep her hands down at her sides, feeling her nipples already growing hard just from the light touches so far.

the teeth seem to let go of your ear as is the warm presence around your neck as you're lying, loose fingers still trailing over your body

a wet finger circles your left nipple.. pinching it lightly
Kimberley leans her head back, inhaling at the light pinching.

a hand moving over your right breast holding it firmly and massaging it, fading a way a few seconds later to have the touch of 2 fingers reappear on your belly circling around your belly button

then a hand slowly runs along your leg, out to the knee then back along the inner thigh, stopping just short of your sex

you hear a voice "you like it so far?" whispering in your ear the breath softly touching your skin
Kimberley moans softly as the firm grip vanishes from her breast, only to bite her lip against a surprised gasp at the touch on her belly. Her legs move slightly apart at the hand on her leg. She nods, swallowing before answering with a smile, "I do..."

you hear a soft satisfying laugh as the fingers from your belly move onto your other leg, moving the exact same as the first hand but moving up onto your hip again just before your sex
Kimberley's hips shift as the hand comes back up her leg.

you feel your left breast grabbed... the hand squeezes and massages... moving slowly over to the other breast
Kimberley arches her back slightly, pressing her breasts against the unseen hand.

the hand from your hip fades away, as you suddenly feel a soft kiss at the same spot
the kisses slowly move down over your leg towards your knee, then lower over your leg as a hand grabs your right feet and massages it softly over the anckle and the bottom of your feet

By this time the victim, and you the reader, may have realized the additional trick: there are not one but two extra participants.  We started with touches that could be ambiguous, but eventually of course made it clear (e.g. by kissing Kimberley simultaneously in two different places).

Ideally the two participants try to write in something of the same style; it shouldn't be immediately clear who's saying what.  It doesn't matter much if someone slips up, though.  (Technically my partner should probably not have spoken, as his voice would be recognizable.  But then he had begun the scene with Kimberley alone so she already knew he was there.)

Every time I've tried this, the blindfoldee has had a very intense experience.  It's a little overwhelming and a little disorienting, and because there are two non-blindfolded participants there is a lot to react to.  (Kimberley was told not to touch back simply because it's more complex: she doesn't know what she's touching.  But later we relaxed this constraint; she'd simply say where she extended her hand and we'd emote what if anything she touched.)

The only victim who expressed some qualms about the procedure was me, on another occasion.  The problem is that I have too active an imagination.  Just to test out the anonymoter, one of the participants said something like "A wolf howls in the distance."  Some later referecences to animal noises made me think that someone was RPing turning into an animal, which I found disturbing rather than erotic!  But everyone else I've tried this with has liked it very much.

Storytelling Sex

I like RP, I like sex, and I love RP with sex.  I'm an RP snob, which means that at the least I like people who are not in too much of a hurry to write out "you", who establish a character, and who emote in interesting ways.  This doesn't mean I'm a "paraplayer"; I find people who write a paragraph in novelistic style more pretentious than fun.  What I like is storytelling RP.  That goes beyond inhabiting a character to building a story.

But what's storytelling sex?  A sex encounter that also tells a little story.  We're not talking literature here; wer're talking about adding narrative elements that they enhance the encounter.  I've done a whole bunch of these with my friend Kata; here are some examples.

• Kata was the head of the Dark Knights, a band of mercenaries in a medieval sim.  I was her dark elf lieutenant; but sometimes Kata needed a good topping.  Above she's getting it.  (I realize the pink strapon is out of period.)  My dark elf was a fairly mean mistress... at one point Kata was acting up, and to calm her down I took out my knife.  She essentially dared me to use it, and I did.  Dark elves don't mess around.  (No body parts were lost, but she had some scars.)
• Another time I played a rogue who broke into Kata's castle trying to attack him.  (Him in this case; Kata will play a boy if you ask nicely.)  I was a fairly clumsy rogue and was easily captured; naturally Kata had to teach me a lesson.  (This was basically a fancy capture RP scenario.  I'm a little squicked out by direct rape fantasies, but I like a scenario where sexual service is the price of failure in a voluntary task.)
• Kata is frozen in our times to be cured and revived in the future.  And she is, only to learn that the future society considers frozen people to be a drain on resources and therefore obligated to be turned into sex slaves.  Devices are implemented to facilitate training (by administering electric shocks or sleep drugs, or by stimulating the pleasure center).
• Another medieval scenario: Kata is an arrogant male wandering warrior who runs into a witch.  He offends her and attacks her.  She paralyzes him and then cures the paralysis by throwing him into a pool of water... which has the property of changing him into a woman.
• Another futuristic scenario: Kata was a trader and bought an alien being sold as a sex toy.  It turned out that the alien had some interesting sexual differences...

With good RPers, such encounters are great fun... occasionally they'd stretch out over a couple of sessions.  They're a partial answer to the question "Why SL?"  RP feels forced and weird in real life, but it's a natural in SL.  And you can do things (change sex, be an alien or elf, have magic powers) that you can't do in reality.  Yet.

Oh, behave!

Another paradox of b/d: a little disobedience is a good thing.  One, it gives opportunities for punishment, and that can be enjoyable for both parties.  And two, as I said before, total passivity is no fun.  It's a thrill to turn a recalcitrant citizen into a warm, quivering, cumming girl.

But you can go too far.  I happens that I got to see examples with both Clancy and Zoe early on.

Clancy had a permanent slave, Leah, an extremely sweet girl-- she helped me find my first hair.  I met with both of them for a play session... Clancy started by fucking me while Leah watched, something which evidently didn't bother her at all.  He played with her a bit, then brought in another girl he had met, Lyra.

He had us eat each other out, then he  fucked Lyra, and she apparently came.  Then, it was like a fuse burst. She started complaining... said she wasn't turned on... then got up and moved to a different machine and demanded that Clancy fuck her there... plus she wanted him to essentially make Leah do tricks.

I was completely new to all this, but I could tell this was totally out of line, and I could sense Clancy losing control of the situation.  Finally he just told her to leave, which she did with ill grace.

I IMd Leah to ask about this... she said that Lyra was a "drama queen" and that such people never worked out either as subs or dommes.

On a night soon after this, I was waiting for Zoe for a play date, and she was taking a long time.  While waiting I ran into a girl named Nadia, who was having a ball trying out her new collar.  These things are riveting when you first get them... animations!  leashing!  permissions!  She had me try things out, which involved reading notecards and setting secowners and other arcana. 

When Zoe arrived, I suggested that she top both of us.  This wasn't a problem.  But Nadia was... she was still playing with her collar, and she wasn't obeying instructions.  Zoe seemed out of sorts.  I was mortified... I'd inserted this chick into a scene with a mistress I respected very much, and I was afraid she was turning into another Lyra.

But finally Zoe asked Nadia if she wanted to get me punished.  That did the trick.  Nadia calmed down, and Zoe made her take off all her toys, which she called "parlor tricks".  She wasn't terribly obedient-- she earned at least six lashes-- but it was back into acceptable territory, and Zoe was pleased again.

Take-home lessons?  I don't know; I think both Clancy and Zoe handled these things with calmness and dignity.   Nadia was fine once she calmed down, but Lyra was probably irredeemable.  At least in SL, where you don't have a real whip to discipline someone with. 

Hanging out

It's fun to wander around SL looking at stuff.  For maybe half an hour.  Then, looking at dungeons and sex toys can be amusing for another hour.  But eventually you want to meet people to play with.  How do you do it?

Well, you hang around.  I used to do this for hours, mostly at the Bondage Ranch.

There was a particular bench that was the hangout center, and there was almost always a bunch of people there.  Eventually I got to know a number of people, and then I could hang around with them... chatting, making snarky comments in chat, sometimes doing little mini-scenes, sometimes doing something silly as in the above picture where a bunch of us were all tied to the pole for a couple hours.  Some of all this was my friend Susan's fault... that's her in the lower right... even if she had a pet, she'd sit at the Ranch with her, occasionally messing with her or giving her a task.

Of course I'd had someone to play with, I'd go do that. :)  But there are a lot of dead times on SL, and it's not a bad idea to have a place to hang out, a place where you're a regular.  It'll pay off, if you're patient.

If you're a little shy, as I am, an RP sim can help, because you can RP a non-shy person.  It works!

Ironically, this is something that gets harder the longer I'm in SL.  When I was new, I had a high boredom threshhold.  These days, if I spend an hour in SL without anything happening, I go play something else.